Residency Applications/Interviews
So I submitted my application the day it opened (9/15) and ever since then, I've been anxiously checking my email for interview invites. I guess it's still a little early because the dean's letter don't go out until 10/1, but a lot of programs have sent out invites. I've managed to get one so far but I guess I'm still nervous that I won't get much. I ended up applying to 33 programs, which I heard is overkill for internal medicine, but the logic behind applying to so many programs is that that I'm basically applying to all the top programs in the regions I want to live (nyc, boston, SF, LA, SD, chicago) plus a couple of programs in smaller cities, and I'm afraid I won't get many interviews! I stupidly only applied to 2 "safeties" but I don't know, I just couldn't see myself going to a community program in smaller cities. I hope this doesn't backfire =/. I mean I know I'm not AOA, but I am in the top quartile (not really sure how that happened) and I think my board scores are pretty solid (just got step 2 this past week and I was really surprised, in a good way). I did do some research and was very involved in school activities. Ok I'm just rambling but I guess I'm trying to justify to myself that I belong in some of the top tier programs. And if I don't...then I'll find a program that I'm happy with! Ok that's enough talk about things that get me anxious haha.
Dating?
Oh god, I'm sure people are sick of hearing the same old stories. I guess given the fact that I have more time now, I've been going on more dates. But I still haven't been able to start a relationship. I think I need to go to therapy or something. After a couple of dates, I tend to always find things that tick me off about the other person and I fixate on them. Maybe I'm making things up subconsciously because I suck at commitment? I mean I'm not going around sleeping with random people or going on multiple dates a day, but I haven't been able to find someone that I can commit to. Also, the more I date around, the more I'm realizing that I'm more attracted to "bros"/a guy's guy. I've gone on dates with a couple of "divas" and...yea I don't know, something just really annoys me. Maybe I'm being too superficial about this. Dating has also been more difficult because I don't know where the hell I'm going to be next year for residency! Maybe after March 21st (match day!) I'll be able to seriously date haha that's wishful thinking.
